PART ONE
Maira naam Nadira Khalid hai. Mairi umar 38 saal hai aur mein shaadi-shuda aur do baitiyon ki ma’an hoon. Mairi barri baiti ***edited*** saal ki hai jabkay cchoti ki umar ***edited*** saal hai. Dono Murree kay aik mashoor boarding school mein zair-e-taaleem hain. Mein apnay shohar Khalid kay saath Islamabad mein rehti hoon. Mairay paanch bhai aur teen behnain hain. Apni behno mein maira number teesra hai.
Mein apni tareef karna pasand nahi karti magar ye bhi kucch ghalat nahi hai kay dunya humaisha say mujhay aik dil-aawaiz aur haseen aurat samajhti aai hai. Hum chaaron hi behnain acchi shakal-o-soorat ki hain. Mairi barri behnain Nilofar aur Khadija aur ccohti behan Shehnaz bhi barri khush-shakal aur jaazib-e-nazar auratain hain. Apni behno ki tarah ***edited*** saal ki umar say hi mujhay khaandaan ki khawateen khoobsoorat kehnay lagi theen. Jab barri boorhiyan hanstay huay halki awaaz mein baatain karti hain to larrkiyaan samajh jaati hain kay kis ka tazkira ho raha hai aur kis waja say ho raha hai. Maira to gharaana bhi kaafi modern aur roshan-khayaal tha iss laiy aisi baatain mairay kaano tak aasaani say puhanch jaaya karti theen.
Qudrat nay har aurat ko doosri say mukhtalif hi paida kiya hai magar sagi behnon mein kisi had tak mushaabihat hona koi ajeeb baat nahi hai. Mairay chehray aur qad-o-qaamat ko daikh kar aasaani say kaha ja sakta hai kay mein Baji Nilofar aur Baji Khadija ki sagi behan hoon. Apni cchoti behan Shehnaz say albata mein itna ziyaada nahi milti kiyonkay uss kay naqoosh bhi thorray mukhtalif hain aur qad bhi humaaray muqaablay mein kaafi cchota hai.
Mein apnay larrakpan aur jawaani mein koi buhat romantic mizaaj ki larrki nahi thi. Shayad mairi tabiyat hi kucch ziyaada aashiqaana nahi hai. Uss waqt mujhay Mills and Boon kay roomaani novel parrhnay ka shoq zaroor tha magar mein doosri larrkiyon ki tarah aisay novels parrh kar kabhi khwaabon ki dunya mein gum nahi hui. Mein nay kabhi nahi soccha kay safaid ghorray par sawaar koi shehzaada kaheen say aa’iy ga aur mujhay apnay saath paryon kay dais lay ja’aiy ga jahaan mein saari zindagi aiash karoon gi. Mujhay larrkon mein dilchaspi thi laikin siraf daikhnay ki had tak aur siraf itni hi jitni kisi bhi nojawaan larrki ko ho sakti hai. Haan mein ye zaroor soccha karti thi kay mairi shaadi kab ho gi aur kis say ho gi.
Uss zamaanay mein kai sar-phiron nay mujh par doray daalnay ki koshish ki magar mein nay unki taraf koi dhiyaan nahi diya. Kucch ye bhi tha kay kabhi kisi nay mujh say itna qareeb honay ki koshish hi nahi ki kay mujhay haan ya na ki soorat mein koi rad-e-amal zaahir karna parrta. Jab mairi aam si shakal-o-soorat waali sahailyon ko larrkay khat likh likh kar bhaijtay to mujhay hairat hoti kay mairay saath kabhi aisa kiyon nahi hota. Mein un say kaheen ziyaada khoobsoorat aur lambi chorri thi magar phir bhi kisi nay kabhi khul kar mujh say izhaar-e-muhbbat nahi kiya. Iss mein shayad mairi apni shakhsiyat ka qasoor bhi raha ho ga jo khoobsurat honay kay bawajood na to kabhi kisi nay mujhay apni laila banaanay ki koshish ki aur na hi kabhi koi maira majnoo bana. Zindagi kisi aisay haadsay kay baghair hi guzarti rahi.
Jawaani kay shuru kay dino mein har larrki ki tarah mujhay bhi sex kay baaray mein barra tajassus tha aur mein jaanna chaahti thi kay ye aakhir hai kiya bala jis ki waja say saari dunya paagal hui phirti hai. Menses shuru honay kay baad mein apnay badan mein honay waali wazeh tabdeeliyon par ghor kiya karti thi. Mujhay apna badan andar say bhi aur baahar say bhi barra mukhtalif mehsoos honay laga tha. Jab mein bathroom mein nahaati to mairay haath khud-ba-khud apnay mammon aur choot par taiz taiz harkat karnay lagtay thay. Tub mujhay barri ajeeb qisam ki lazzat ka ehsaas hota tha aur jab ye lazzat buhat ziyaada barrhnay lagti to mein ghabra jaati thi. Mairi choot kay bilkul oopar ka hissa aur mammon kay nipple khaas tor par barray hassas maqamaat ban ga'aiy thay aur unhay haath lagaanay say mujhay humaisha kucch honay lagta tha.
Aik din Baji Nilofar ki kisi sahaili nay unhay aik risaala diya jis mein mardon aur auraton ki nangi tasweerain theen. Wo ye risaala apni college ki kitaabon mein cchupa kar ghar lay aaeen aur hum teeno behnain cchup kar ussay daikhnay lageen. Uss mein mard aur aurat kay sex karnay ki tasweerain to nahi theen magar aisi tasweerain zaroor theen jin mein mardon kay akrray huay lund ko barray qareeb say dikhaaya gaya tha. Humain aisi haalat mein lund daikhna barra accha laga. Mujhay aaj bhi mard ka danday ki tarah seedha kharra hua lund buhat garam kar daita hai. Mein khaas tor par kharray huay lund kay topay ko buhat pasand karti hoon aur maira dil chaahta hai kay mein ussay haath mein lay kar mehsoos karti rahoon. Uss waqt bhi mujhay lund choosnay ka buhat shoq tha aur ab bhi hai magar mein nay ye baat kabhi kisi ko nahi batai. Har aurat ki koi na koi sexual fantasy zaroor hoti hai aur mairi sab say barri sexual fantasy hi kisi akrray huay motay lund par iss tarah aagay peechay haath phairna aur ussay choosna hai kay wo khalaas ho ja'aiy aur barri taiz-raftaari say manni baahar phainknay lagay. Ye doosri baat hai kay mein zindagi mein kabhi koi lund nahi choos saki.
Uss zamaanay mein kabhi kabhaar mein ultay seedhay khwaab bhi daikha karti thi jin mein koi mard mujhay chod raha hota tha. Neend mein hi mujhay ehsaas hota kay mein apnay pait kay andar kay kisi hissay ko zor zor say daba rahi hoon. Laikin mein ye nahi bata sakti thi wo mairay badan ka kon sa hissa tha. Zindagi mein pehli dafa mein issi tarah neend ki haalat mein khalaas hui thi aur jab mairi aankh khuli to mairi choot andar say buhat ziyaada geeli thi. Wo raat mujhay aaj tak yaad hai. Laikin in sab baaton kay bawajood mein sex ki koi buhat ziyaada deewaani nahi thi.
Jab mein 25 baras ki umar ko puhanchi to mairi shaadi kar di gai. Mairay shohar Khalid barray khush-shakal, khush-posh aur intahai parrhay likhay insaan hain. Unho nay America ki aik mashoor university say Business Administration mein degree haasil kar rakhi hai aur aik barri multi-national firm mein kaam kartay hain. Unho nay aik shaadi mein mujhay daikha tha aur phir do maheenay kay andar andar mujhay biyaah kar apnay ghar lay aa’aiy. Yon mairi zindagi ka aik naya baab shuru hua.
Suhaag raat ko mein nay pehli dafa choot marwai aur tub hi mujhay pata chala kay apni choot kay andar lund lay kar khalaas honay ka lutf kiya hota hai. Kisi aurat kay liay dunya kay kisi aur kaam mein itna maza nahi hai jitna apni choot daitay huay poori tarah say khalaas honay mein hai. Ye ajeeb hi maza hai jo har dafa aurat mehsoos karti hai aur har dafa ussay naya lagta hai. Qudrat nay mardon kay muqaablay mein auraton ko ye buhat barra tuhfa ata kiya hai kay wo aik dafa kay chudwaanay mein hi kai baar khalaas ho sakti hain.
Apnay buhat lambay qad aur sehatmand badan kay bawajood mairi choot kaafi cchoti hai jis ki waja say uss raat mujhay lund apnay andar laitay huay buhat taqleef bhi hui. Issi liay Khalid nay mujhay aglay kai din tak nahi choda jis ka mujhay afsos bhi hua. Wo niyahat shareef, suljhay huay aur muhabbat karnay waalay shohar hain aur mein apni azdawaaji zindagi say buhat khush aur mutma’in hoon. Buhat si doosri biwiyon kay bar-aks mairay dil say humaisha apnay shohar kay liay dua hi nikalti hai.
Shaadi kay baad mujhay jald hi andaaza ho gaya kay mein har dafa choot daitay huay khalaas nahi hoti. Agar mein das baar sex karti to siraf teen ya chaar baar hi khalaas hoti thi. Baaz auqaat mujhay iss soorat-e-haal par ghussa bhi aa jaata tha magar mein nay iss baaray mein Khalid say kabhi kucch nahi kaha. Unho nay bhi iss silsilay mein mujh say kabhi koi sawaal nahi kiya kay jab wo mujhay chodtay hain to mein khalaas hoti hoon ya nahi aur agar hoti bhi hoon to kitni dafa. Baad kay saalon mein ye routine ban gaya aur mujhay khalaas na honay say jo maayoosi hua karti thi wo bhi taqreeban khatam ho gai. Mein khalaas honay kay baghair hi chudwaanay ka maza lay liya karti thi. Kabhi kabhi mein Khalid ka dil rakhnay kay liay khalaas honay ki adakaari bhi karti thi ta kay unhay pata na chalay kay wo mujhay khalaas nahi kar pa rahay.
Agarchay mein kum hi khalaas hoti hoon laikin jab bhi aisa ho bed par mairi ucchal kood kucch ziyaada hi bay-sharmi waali hoti hai. Khalaas hotay huay mujhay apnay badan par bilkul qaaboo nahi rehta hai. Issi tarah uss waqt mairay munh say taiz cheekhain aur ajeeb-o-ghareeb awaazaian nikalti hain jis par mujhay barri sharmindgi hoti hai. Laikin agli dafa khalaas hotay huay phir aisa hi karti hoon. Issi liay mairi baityaan chuttiyon mein ghar aai hon to Khalid mujhay chodnay say guraiz kartay hain kay kaheen khalaas hotay huay mairi cheekhain unkay kamray tak na puhanch ja'ayain. Mein jaanti hoon kay mairi harkaton ko Khalid aaj tak apnay lund ka kamaal samjhtay rahay hain. Wo socchtay hain kay mein poori tarah satisfy ho rahi hoon to itna shor macha rahi hoon na warna aisa kiyon karoon. Mein nay bhi kabhi unhay ye bataanay ki koshish nahi ki kay aisa nahi hai. Mujhay aisa karnay ki zaroorat hi kiya hai. Unho nay bhi kabhi iss baat par ghor nahi kiya kay aakhir mein har dafa sex kartay huay aisa kiyon nahi karti.
Phir mein dunya ki waahid aurat nahi hoon jis kay saath aisa hota hai. Aur bhi buhat si hain. Mairay badan kay kucch hissay aisay hain jinhay agar stimulate kiya ja’aiy ya masla ja’aiy to mein zaroor khalaas hoti hoon. In mein clitoris, mammay aur gand ka soraakh sab say ziyaada hassaas hain. Laikin mairay liay ye barra mushkil hai kay mein sex kay doraan Khalid say kahoon kay wo mairay badan kay in hisson par tawajo dain. Mein unka itna ehteraam karti hoon kay mein nay iss baaray mein unhay kucch keh kar kabhi paraishaan ya sharminda karnay ki koshish nahi ki. Waisay bhi mairay kum khalaas honay mein unka kiya qasoor hai. Waqt kay saath saath unki sex karnay ki khaahish kum hoti gai laikin phir bhi wo das baara din baad mujhay zaroor chodtay hain. Mairay liay yehi kaafi hai.
Humaaray haan to waisay bhi buhat kum shaadiyaan aisi hoti hain jis mein aurat sex kay doraan wo sab kucch kar sakti hai jo wo karna chaahti hai. Iss maamlay mein auraton ko kai qisam kay khof hotay hain. Mairay shohar buhat acchay insaan hain laikin mein phir bhi darti hoon kay agar mein nay chudwaatay huay un say koi mutaalba kiya to wo kaheen mujhay bud-kirdaar na samjhna shuru kar dain ya apnay aap mein koi kami na mehsoos karain. Mard apni mardaangi kay baaray mein zaroorat say ziyaada hasaas hotay hain iss liay khaamosh rehna hi behtar hai. Yehi waja hai kay bed par Khalid jo chaahtay hain mein chup chaap karti jaati hoon aur apni khaahishaat ka izhaar kabhi nahi karti.
Mein phir kahoon gi kay mujhay apnay baaray mein iss tarah ki baatain karna accha nahi lagta magar iss kahaani ko mukamal background kay saath bayaan karnay kay liay aisa karna zaroori hai. Mujhay jaannay waalay kehtay hain kay shaadi kay 13 saal baad bhi maira husn bilkul maand nahi parra. Dono barri behno say shabaahat kay bawajood majmooi tor par mairay chehray ko munfarid kaha ja sakta hai. Mairi aankhain barri barri aur kaali siyaah hain, naak oonchi, hont turshay huay aur gaal bharay bharay hain. Maira chehra zara lamba hai aur shayad yehi baat mujhay apni behno say alag karti hai jin kay chehray thorray say gol hain. Mujhay apnay baal buhat pasand hain jo buhat ghanay, raishmi, motay, siaah aur kandhon say kaafi neechay tak lambay hain.
Maira badan jawaani kay ibtidai dino say hi thos, bhaari aur mazboot hai. Mairi dost khawateen hansti hain kay mairay badan ka har wo hissa jissay barra hona chaahiay barra hi hai maslan qad, aankhain, mammay aur gand. Wo ye bhi kehti hain kay mujhay daikh kar sab say pehlay yehi khayaal aata hai kay mairi aankhain, mammay aur gand aam auraton say ziyaada motay hain. Ye sahi bhi hai kiyonkay mairi koi sahaili bhi mairay jitni lambi chorri nahi hai. Apnay khaandaan say baahar mein nay kum hi mardon aur aurton ko daikha hai jo mairay jitnay lambay hon. Jab mein college aur University mein parrhti thi tub bhi aisa hi tha aur aaj bhi aisa hi hai.
Maira lamba qad bhi yaqeenan mairay mammon aur chootarron kay barray size ko aur ziyaada logon ki nazron mein laata hai. Mazboot aur bhaari honay kay bawajood maira badan bilkul bay-dol aur dheela nahi hai. Apni dono baitiyon ki paida’ish kay baad mujhay khadsha tha kay maira pait nikal aa’aiy ga aur issi liay mein nay apni doctors kay mashwaray say humaisha pait ki exercises keen aur apnay pait ko thorra sa bhi nikalnay nahi diya. Mein ab bhi regularly pait ki warzishain karti hoon. Ye shayad apnay aap ko fit rakhnay kay hawaalay say mairi sab say barri kaamyaabi hai.
Auraton kay jisam par waisay bhi mardon kay muqaablay mein kaheen ziyaada charbi hoti hai aur agar ye charbi unkay jisam mein munaasib andaaz mein aur munaasib maqamaat par taqseem ho to shayad bhaari bharkam hotay huay bhi wo buri nahi lagteen. Ye sab qudrat ki taraf say hota hai. Maira badan bhi kucch aisa hi hai aur agarchay mairay mammay, kandhay, bazoo, chootarr aur raanain itnay motay hain magar mujhay phir bhi koi mota nahi keh sakta. Mein lambi chorri, tagrri aur tandurast-o-tawaana hoon laikin phusphusi aur moti nahi. Ye aur baat hai kay mein khud apnay badan ki saakht ko pasand nahi karti aur maira humaisha say yehi khayaal hai kay agar mairay mammay aur chootarr thorray cchotay hotay to ziyaada accha hota.
Mairay mammay seenay par kaafi oonchay hain aur phoolay huay nazar aatay hain. Mairay nipples bhi buhat lambay aur motay motay hain. Mein ziyaada dair tak brassiere pehnay rahoon to mairay nipples mein halka halka dard shuru ho jaata hai aur mujhay ghantay do ghantay kay liay brassiere utaar kar apnay mammon ko khula rakhna parrta hai. Agar mairay nipple brassiere kay andar ghalat zaawiyay say dabay huay hoon tub bhi mujhay taqleef hoti hai. Aisi soorat mein mein apnay garaibaan mein haath daal kar mammon ko brassiere mein theek karti rehti hoon. Ye apni jagah aik masla hai kiyonkay kisi kay saamnay to aisa kiya nahi ja sakta. Mein ya to apnay akailay honay ka intizaar karti hoon ya bathroom chali jaati hoon. Mairay bazoo bhi gol aur motay hain aur bazo’oon kay darmiyaan mairay mammon kay dono ubhaar khud mujhay thorra sa bhi neechay daikhnay par baahar niklay huay nazar aatay rehtay hain. Mein sar jhukaoon to mujhay apnay pa’oon nazar nahi aatay kiyonkay mairay mammay saamnay hotay hain. Pata nahi aur auraton kay saath aisa hota hai ya nahi laikin mairay saath to humaisha say yehi hai.
Mairay mammay 12/13 saal ki umar mein hi buhat taizi say barrhnay shuru ho ga’aiy thay. Phir 18/19 baras ki umar tak puhanchtay puhanchtay mein apnay motay aur bay-qaaboo mammon ko sambhaalnay kay liay acchay khaasay barray size ka brassiere pehannay lagi thi. Mairay liay to brassiere ko theek tareeqay say apny mammon par fit kar kay pehanna bhi aik masla hota tha. Naram kaprray ka brassiere pehanti to mairay mammon ka hilna band nahi hota tha aur agar sakht material say bana hua brassiere istimaal karti to bay-chaini aur bay-aaraami hoti. Baji Nilofar, Baji Khadija ka bhi yehi haal tha aur unkay mammay bhi issi raftaar say soojtay ja rahay thay. Kucch arsay baad Shehnaz bhi issi tajarbay say guzri.
Choonkay hum sab behnon kay mammay motay hi thay iss liay uss waqt mujhay apnay mammon ka mota aur barra hona ziyaada paraishaan nahi karta tha. Mairi cchothi behan Shehnaz mujh say 7 saal cchoti hai aur uss waqt apni kum-umri ki waja say motay mammay uss ka masla nahi thay. Laikin Baji Nilofar, Baji Khadija aur mein mazaaq mazaaq mein apnay bharrtay huay mammon ka muqaabla kiya karti theen. Issi tarah hum aik doosray kay mammon ko tatol tatol kar aur daba daba kar bhi daikha kartay thay kay kis kay mammay ziyaada barray aur bhaari hain. Hum teeno mein apnay nipples ki motai aur lambai ka muqaabla bhi hua karta tha. Humaari sab say ziyaada waahiyaat harkat ye hoti thay kay hum aik doosray kay nipples ko chutkiyon mein pakarr pakarr kar daikhtay thay kay kis kay nipple jaldi akarrtay hain. Ajeeb bay-fikri ka zamaana tha.
Baji Khadija buhat shokh hua karti theen aur kai dafa unho nay kappray badaltay huay mairay nangay mammon ko haath mein pakrr kar bhi masla tha. Baji Nilofar unhay aisa karnay say mana karti theen laikin jab wo baaz nahi aati theen to Baji Nilofar khud unkay mammon ko pakarr liya karti theen. Phir to jaisay qayaamat aa jaati thi aur hum teeno aik doosray kay mammay pakarr pakarr kar khaincha kartay thay. Humain apnay mammon par aik doosray kay haathon ka lams barra accha lagta tha. Issi qisam ki ehmaqaana harkaton ki waja say hum teeno kay kai brassiere phat ga’aiy aur istimaal kay qaabil nahi rahay.
Larrkiyon ki aik buhat barri aksariyat kay mammay 18/19 saal ki umar mein barrhna band ho jaatay hain aur iss kay baad unkay size mein thorra buhat hi farq parrta hai. Aisa mammon ki waja say nahi hota balkay jab pooray jisam ka wazan barrhta hai to mammay bhi bhaari ho jaatay hain. Laikin chand aisi auratain bhi hoti hain jin kay mammay baad mein bhi bharrhtay rehtay hain. Mein aur mairi behnain bhi aisi hi hain. Umar kay saath saath humaara wazan bhi barrhta raha aur mammay bhi mazeed motay hotay ga’aiy. Mein to tub apnay mammon say bay-zaar hona shuru hui jab har do teen saal kay baad mujhay apnay brassiere ka size tabdeel kar kay barray size ka brassiere laina parrta tha.
Shaadi kay pehlay saal jab mein apnay shohar kay saath America gai aur wahaan aik store say apnay liay brassiere khareeda to mujhay pata chala kay mairay mammon ka size 36HH hai. Phir dono baitiyon ki paidaish kay chand saal kay andar andar mairay mammay aur bhi barray ho ga’aiy aur unka size 40HH tak ja puhancha. Iss mein 40 kamar aur mammon kay neechay waalay hissay ka size hai jabkay HH mammon ki motai aur golai ka size hai. Jo khawateen brassiere kay sizes say waaqif hain wo jaanti hain kay 40HH mammay buhat barray aur motay hotay hain. Haan ye zaroor hai kay mairay ghair-maamooli lambay qad ki waja say mairay mammay daikhnay waalon ko koi buhat ziyaada barray nazar nahi aatay kiyonkay maira poora badan hi barra hai. Oonchay aur tthos honay ki waja say mairay bhaari mammay kabhi kabhi mairi kamar mein dard bhi paida kar daitay hain jo kai kai din tak mujhay paraishaan rakhta hai. Laikin ab to mujhay iss ki bhi aadat ho gai hai.
Picchlay tees baras kay tajarbay ko saamnay rakhtay huay mein apnay baaray mein yaqeen say nahi keh sakti kay mustaqbil mein mairay mammon ka size mazeed barrhay ga ya nahi. Phir bhi mujhay lagta hai kay ab mairay mammay issi size kay rahain gay kiyonkay Baji Nilofar jo mujh say teen saal barri hain unkay mammay bhi kum-o-baish mairay jitnay hi motay hain. Baji Khadija kay baaray mein to mein jaanti hoon kay wo mairay hi size ka brassiere pahenti hain. Iss liay ho sakta hai maira size bhi un dono jitna hi rahay. Agar aisa hi hua to mairay liay ye baat bhi itminaan ka ba’ais ho gi.
Apnay badan par mammon kay wazan ko thorra kum karnay kay liay mein nay kai dafa soccha kay America mein Breast Reduction surgery kay zarye apnay mammon ka size kucch kum karwa loon. Aisa aasaani say kiya ja sakta hai aur ye koi buhat ziyaada taqleef-day operation nahi hai. Mein shayad aisa kar bhi laiti laikin Baji Nilofar aur Baji Khadija nay mujhay sakhti say mana kar diya. Unka kehna tha kay humaari tarah ki itnay motay motay mammon waali auratain buhat thorri hoti hain aur jab humain qudrat nay ye naimat day rakhi hai to hum kufraan-e-naimat kiyon karain. Mein nay unki baat maan li kiyonkay agar wo dono apnay motay mammon par fakhar karti theen to mein apnay aap ko un say alag kar kay kamtar kiyon saabit karti. Kiya pata baad mein mujhay iss baat ka afsos hota. Phir iss haqeeqat say bhi to inkaar nahi kiya ja sakta kay mammay aurat ki niswaanyat ki sab barri shanaakht hain aur agar qudrat nay mujhay ye shanaakht ata kar rakhi hai to mein issay kiyon khatam karoon.
Mairay chootarr bhi waqt kay saath saath buhat motay aur chorray ho gaiy hain. Waisay to mairi gand mammon ki tarah buhat jawaani say hi bhaari thi aur mairi bay-takalluf sahailiyaan mairay hiltay huay motay motay chootarron kay baaray mein barray ganday ganday mazaaq kiya karti theen jaisay maira khawind mairi gand maara karay ga ya mairay paas lund lainay kay liay aik say ziyaada soraakh hain. Mein unhay kehti thi kay gand bhi koi maarnay ki cheez hai. Aisa hua bhi nahi kiyonkay Khalid fitratan barray seedhay insaan hain aur sex bhi barray seedhay saadhay tareeqay say hi karaty hain. Unho nay kabhi mairi gand nahi maari aur na hi kabhi mujh say iss baaray mein koi baat ki. Mein nay bhi ye kabhi soccha nahi kay agar wo aisa karain to mein kiya mehsoos karoon gi.
Jab mairi pehli baiti ki paidaish hui to mairay chootarr aur bhi taizi say motay honay shuru ho ga’aiy. Iss kay baad to mairay chootarron ka size har guzartay saal kay saath barrhta hi raha. Iss waqt mairay chootarr 43 inch kay hain jinhay kam-az-kam mein to ye bilkul pasand nahi karti. Kon itni moti aur bhaari gand ka bojh har waqt utha’aiy utha’aiy phiray. Log kehtay hain kay aurat ki khoobsurti uss kay mammon aur gand mein hoti hai aur mein to iss maamlay mein kucch ziyaada hi khud-kafeel hoon.
Iss waqt mairay badan ki bilkul sahi paima’ish 40HH-36-43 hai yaani 40HH mammay, 36 inch kamar aur 43 inch chootarr. Mein apnay aap ko slim karnay ki koshishain apni doosri baiti ki paidaish kay baad say yaani 28 baras ki umar say kar rahi hoon. Laikin har tarah ka jatan kar lainay kay bawajood siwaiy pait kay mein apnay badan mein aik inch ka farq nahi la saki. Tung aa kar mein aik Weight Loss expert kay paas gai to uss nay kaha kay mairi haddiyaan barri barri aur chorri hain jo mujhay apnay waaldain say wiraasat mein mili hain aur mein iss waja say kabhi bhi buhat dubli nahi ho sakti. Mein nay iss liay dubla honay ka khayaal hi dil say nikaal diya.
Maira naam Nadira Khalid hai. Mairi umar 38 saal hai aur mein shaadi-shuda aur do baitiyon ki ma’an hoon. Mairi barri baiti ***edited*** saal ki hai jabkay cchoti ki umar ***edited*** saal hai. Dono Murree kay aik mashoor boarding school mein zair-e-taaleem hain. Mein apnay shohar Khalid kay saath Islamabad mein rehti hoon. Mairay paanch bhai aur teen behnain hain. Apni behno mein maira number teesra hai.
Mein apni tareef karna pasand nahi karti magar ye bhi kucch ghalat nahi hai kay dunya humaisha say mujhay aik dil-aawaiz aur haseen aurat samajhti aai hai. Hum chaaron hi behnain acchi shakal-o-soorat ki hain. Mairi barri behnain Nilofar aur Khadija aur ccohti behan Shehnaz bhi barri khush-shakal aur jaazib-e-nazar auratain hain. Apni behno ki tarah ***edited*** saal ki umar say hi mujhay khaandaan ki khawateen khoobsoorat kehnay lagi theen. Jab barri boorhiyan hanstay huay halki awaaz mein baatain karti hain to larrkiyaan samajh jaati hain kay kis ka tazkira ho raha hai aur kis waja say ho raha hai. Maira to gharaana bhi kaafi modern aur roshan-khayaal tha iss laiy aisi baatain mairay kaano tak aasaani say puhanch jaaya karti theen.
Qudrat nay har aurat ko doosri say mukhtalif hi paida kiya hai magar sagi behnon mein kisi had tak mushaabihat hona koi ajeeb baat nahi hai. Mairay chehray aur qad-o-qaamat ko daikh kar aasaani say kaha ja sakta hai kay mein Baji Nilofar aur Baji Khadija ki sagi behan hoon. Apni cchoti behan Shehnaz say albata mein itna ziyaada nahi milti kiyonkay uss kay naqoosh bhi thorray mukhtalif hain aur qad bhi humaaray muqaablay mein kaafi cchota hai.
Mein apnay larrakpan aur jawaani mein koi buhat romantic mizaaj ki larrki nahi thi. Shayad mairi tabiyat hi kucch ziyaada aashiqaana nahi hai. Uss waqt mujhay Mills and Boon kay roomaani novel parrhnay ka shoq zaroor tha magar mein doosri larrkiyon ki tarah aisay novels parrh kar kabhi khwaabon ki dunya mein gum nahi hui. Mein nay kabhi nahi soccha kay safaid ghorray par sawaar koi shehzaada kaheen say aa’iy ga aur mujhay apnay saath paryon kay dais lay ja’aiy ga jahaan mein saari zindagi aiash karoon gi. Mujhay larrkon mein dilchaspi thi laikin siraf daikhnay ki had tak aur siraf itni hi jitni kisi bhi nojawaan larrki ko ho sakti hai. Haan mein ye zaroor soccha karti thi kay mairi shaadi kab ho gi aur kis say ho gi.
Uss zamaanay mein kai sar-phiron nay mujh par doray daalnay ki koshish ki magar mein nay unki taraf koi dhiyaan nahi diya. Kucch ye bhi tha kay kabhi kisi nay mujh say itna qareeb honay ki koshish hi nahi ki kay mujhay haan ya na ki soorat mein koi rad-e-amal zaahir karna parrta. Jab mairi aam si shakal-o-soorat waali sahailyon ko larrkay khat likh likh kar bhaijtay to mujhay hairat hoti kay mairay saath kabhi aisa kiyon nahi hota. Mein un say kaheen ziyaada khoobsoorat aur lambi chorri thi magar phir bhi kisi nay kabhi khul kar mujh say izhaar-e-muhbbat nahi kiya. Iss mein shayad mairi apni shakhsiyat ka qasoor bhi raha ho ga jo khoobsurat honay kay bawajood na to kabhi kisi nay mujhay apni laila banaanay ki koshish ki aur na hi kabhi koi maira majnoo bana. Zindagi kisi aisay haadsay kay baghair hi guzarti rahi.
Jawaani kay shuru kay dino mein har larrki ki tarah mujhay bhi sex kay baaray mein barra tajassus tha aur mein jaanna chaahti thi kay ye aakhir hai kiya bala jis ki waja say saari dunya paagal hui phirti hai. Menses shuru honay kay baad mein apnay badan mein honay waali wazeh tabdeeliyon par ghor kiya karti thi. Mujhay apna badan andar say bhi aur baahar say bhi barra mukhtalif mehsoos honay laga tha. Jab mein bathroom mein nahaati to mairay haath khud-ba-khud apnay mammon aur choot par taiz taiz harkat karnay lagtay thay. Tub mujhay barri ajeeb qisam ki lazzat ka ehsaas hota tha aur jab ye lazzat buhat ziyaada barrhnay lagti to mein ghabra jaati thi. Mairi choot kay bilkul oopar ka hissa aur mammon kay nipple khaas tor par barray hassas maqamaat ban ga'aiy thay aur unhay haath lagaanay say mujhay humaisha kucch honay lagta tha.
Aik din Baji Nilofar ki kisi sahaili nay unhay aik risaala diya jis mein mardon aur auraton ki nangi tasweerain theen. Wo ye risaala apni college ki kitaabon mein cchupa kar ghar lay aaeen aur hum teeno behnain cchup kar ussay daikhnay lageen. Uss mein mard aur aurat kay sex karnay ki tasweerain to nahi theen magar aisi tasweerain zaroor theen jin mein mardon kay akrray huay lund ko barray qareeb say dikhaaya gaya tha. Humain aisi haalat mein lund daikhna barra accha laga. Mujhay aaj bhi mard ka danday ki tarah seedha kharra hua lund buhat garam kar daita hai. Mein khaas tor par kharray huay lund kay topay ko buhat pasand karti hoon aur maira dil chaahta hai kay mein ussay haath mein lay kar mehsoos karti rahoon. Uss waqt bhi mujhay lund choosnay ka buhat shoq tha aur ab bhi hai magar mein nay ye baat kabhi kisi ko nahi batai. Har aurat ki koi na koi sexual fantasy zaroor hoti hai aur mairi sab say barri sexual fantasy hi kisi akrray huay motay lund par iss tarah aagay peechay haath phairna aur ussay choosna hai kay wo khalaas ho ja'aiy aur barri taiz-raftaari say manni baahar phainknay lagay. Ye doosri baat hai kay mein zindagi mein kabhi koi lund nahi choos saki.
Uss zamaanay mein kabhi kabhaar mein ultay seedhay khwaab bhi daikha karti thi jin mein koi mard mujhay chod raha hota tha. Neend mein hi mujhay ehsaas hota kay mein apnay pait kay andar kay kisi hissay ko zor zor say daba rahi hoon. Laikin mein ye nahi bata sakti thi wo mairay badan ka kon sa hissa tha. Zindagi mein pehli dafa mein issi tarah neend ki haalat mein khalaas hui thi aur jab mairi aankh khuli to mairi choot andar say buhat ziyaada geeli thi. Wo raat mujhay aaj tak yaad hai. Laikin in sab baaton kay bawajood mein sex ki koi buhat ziyaada deewaani nahi thi.
Jab mein 25 baras ki umar ko puhanchi to mairi shaadi kar di gai. Mairay shohar Khalid barray khush-shakal, khush-posh aur intahai parrhay likhay insaan hain. Unho nay America ki aik mashoor university say Business Administration mein degree haasil kar rakhi hai aur aik barri multi-national firm mein kaam kartay hain. Unho nay aik shaadi mein mujhay daikha tha aur phir do maheenay kay andar andar mujhay biyaah kar apnay ghar lay aa’aiy. Yon mairi zindagi ka aik naya baab shuru hua.
Suhaag raat ko mein nay pehli dafa choot marwai aur tub hi mujhay pata chala kay apni choot kay andar lund lay kar khalaas honay ka lutf kiya hota hai. Kisi aurat kay liay dunya kay kisi aur kaam mein itna maza nahi hai jitna apni choot daitay huay poori tarah say khalaas honay mein hai. Ye ajeeb hi maza hai jo har dafa aurat mehsoos karti hai aur har dafa ussay naya lagta hai. Qudrat nay mardon kay muqaablay mein auraton ko ye buhat barra tuhfa ata kiya hai kay wo aik dafa kay chudwaanay mein hi kai baar khalaas ho sakti hain.
Apnay buhat lambay qad aur sehatmand badan kay bawajood mairi choot kaafi cchoti hai jis ki waja say uss raat mujhay lund apnay andar laitay huay buhat taqleef bhi hui. Issi liay Khalid nay mujhay aglay kai din tak nahi choda jis ka mujhay afsos bhi hua. Wo niyahat shareef, suljhay huay aur muhabbat karnay waalay shohar hain aur mein apni azdawaaji zindagi say buhat khush aur mutma’in hoon. Buhat si doosri biwiyon kay bar-aks mairay dil say humaisha apnay shohar kay liay dua hi nikalti hai.
Shaadi kay baad mujhay jald hi andaaza ho gaya kay mein har dafa choot daitay huay khalaas nahi hoti. Agar mein das baar sex karti to siraf teen ya chaar baar hi khalaas hoti thi. Baaz auqaat mujhay iss soorat-e-haal par ghussa bhi aa jaata tha magar mein nay iss baaray mein Khalid say kabhi kucch nahi kaha. Unho nay bhi iss silsilay mein mujh say kabhi koi sawaal nahi kiya kay jab wo mujhay chodtay hain to mein khalaas hoti hoon ya nahi aur agar hoti bhi hoon to kitni dafa. Baad kay saalon mein ye routine ban gaya aur mujhay khalaas na honay say jo maayoosi hua karti thi wo bhi taqreeban khatam ho gai. Mein khalaas honay kay baghair hi chudwaanay ka maza lay liya karti thi. Kabhi kabhi mein Khalid ka dil rakhnay kay liay khalaas honay ki adakaari bhi karti thi ta kay unhay pata na chalay kay wo mujhay khalaas nahi kar pa rahay.
Agarchay mein kum hi khalaas hoti hoon laikin jab bhi aisa ho bed par mairi ucchal kood kucch ziyaada hi bay-sharmi waali hoti hai. Khalaas hotay huay mujhay apnay badan par bilkul qaaboo nahi rehta hai. Issi tarah uss waqt mairay munh say taiz cheekhain aur ajeeb-o-ghareeb awaazaian nikalti hain jis par mujhay barri sharmindgi hoti hai. Laikin agli dafa khalaas hotay huay phir aisa hi karti hoon. Issi liay mairi baityaan chuttiyon mein ghar aai hon to Khalid mujhay chodnay say guraiz kartay hain kay kaheen khalaas hotay huay mairi cheekhain unkay kamray tak na puhanch ja'ayain. Mein jaanti hoon kay mairi harkaton ko Khalid aaj tak apnay lund ka kamaal samjhtay rahay hain. Wo socchtay hain kay mein poori tarah satisfy ho rahi hoon to itna shor macha rahi hoon na warna aisa kiyon karoon. Mein nay bhi kabhi unhay ye bataanay ki koshish nahi ki kay aisa nahi hai. Mujhay aisa karnay ki zaroorat hi kiya hai. Unho nay bhi kabhi iss baat par ghor nahi kiya kay aakhir mein har dafa sex kartay huay aisa kiyon nahi karti.
Phir mein dunya ki waahid aurat nahi hoon jis kay saath aisa hota hai. Aur bhi buhat si hain. Mairay badan kay kucch hissay aisay hain jinhay agar stimulate kiya ja’aiy ya masla ja’aiy to mein zaroor khalaas hoti hoon. In mein clitoris, mammay aur gand ka soraakh sab say ziyaada hassaas hain. Laikin mairay liay ye barra mushkil hai kay mein sex kay doraan Khalid say kahoon kay wo mairay badan kay in hisson par tawajo dain. Mein unka itna ehteraam karti hoon kay mein nay iss baaray mein unhay kucch keh kar kabhi paraishaan ya sharminda karnay ki koshish nahi ki. Waisay bhi mairay kum khalaas honay mein unka kiya qasoor hai. Waqt kay saath saath unki sex karnay ki khaahish kum hoti gai laikin phir bhi wo das baara din baad mujhay zaroor chodtay hain. Mairay liay yehi kaafi hai.
Humaaray haan to waisay bhi buhat kum shaadiyaan aisi hoti hain jis mein aurat sex kay doraan wo sab kucch kar sakti hai jo wo karna chaahti hai. Iss maamlay mein auraton ko kai qisam kay khof hotay hain. Mairay shohar buhat acchay insaan hain laikin mein phir bhi darti hoon kay agar mein nay chudwaatay huay un say koi mutaalba kiya to wo kaheen mujhay bud-kirdaar na samjhna shuru kar dain ya apnay aap mein koi kami na mehsoos karain. Mard apni mardaangi kay baaray mein zaroorat say ziyaada hasaas hotay hain iss liay khaamosh rehna hi behtar hai. Yehi waja hai kay bed par Khalid jo chaahtay hain mein chup chaap karti jaati hoon aur apni khaahishaat ka izhaar kabhi nahi karti.
Mein phir kahoon gi kay mujhay apnay baaray mein iss tarah ki baatain karna accha nahi lagta magar iss kahaani ko mukamal background kay saath bayaan karnay kay liay aisa karna zaroori hai. Mujhay jaannay waalay kehtay hain kay shaadi kay 13 saal baad bhi maira husn bilkul maand nahi parra. Dono barri behno say shabaahat kay bawajood majmooi tor par mairay chehray ko munfarid kaha ja sakta hai. Mairi aankhain barri barri aur kaali siyaah hain, naak oonchi, hont turshay huay aur gaal bharay bharay hain. Maira chehra zara lamba hai aur shayad yehi baat mujhay apni behno say alag karti hai jin kay chehray thorray say gol hain. Mujhay apnay baal buhat pasand hain jo buhat ghanay, raishmi, motay, siaah aur kandhon say kaafi neechay tak lambay hain.
Maira badan jawaani kay ibtidai dino say hi thos, bhaari aur mazboot hai. Mairi dost khawateen hansti hain kay mairay badan ka har wo hissa jissay barra hona chaahiay barra hi hai maslan qad, aankhain, mammay aur gand. Wo ye bhi kehti hain kay mujhay daikh kar sab say pehlay yehi khayaal aata hai kay mairi aankhain, mammay aur gand aam auraton say ziyaada motay hain. Ye sahi bhi hai kiyonkay mairi koi sahaili bhi mairay jitni lambi chorri nahi hai. Apnay khaandaan say baahar mein nay kum hi mardon aur aurton ko daikha hai jo mairay jitnay lambay hon. Jab mein college aur University mein parrhti thi tub bhi aisa hi tha aur aaj bhi aisa hi hai.
Maira lamba qad bhi yaqeenan mairay mammon aur chootarron kay barray size ko aur ziyaada logon ki nazron mein laata hai. Mazboot aur bhaari honay kay bawajood maira badan bilkul bay-dol aur dheela nahi hai. Apni dono baitiyon ki paida’ish kay baad mujhay khadsha tha kay maira pait nikal aa’aiy ga aur issi liay mein nay apni doctors kay mashwaray say humaisha pait ki exercises keen aur apnay pait ko thorra sa bhi nikalnay nahi diya. Mein ab bhi regularly pait ki warzishain karti hoon. Ye shayad apnay aap ko fit rakhnay kay hawaalay say mairi sab say barri kaamyaabi hai.
Auraton kay jisam par waisay bhi mardon kay muqaablay mein kaheen ziyaada charbi hoti hai aur agar ye charbi unkay jisam mein munaasib andaaz mein aur munaasib maqamaat par taqseem ho to shayad bhaari bharkam hotay huay bhi wo buri nahi lagteen. Ye sab qudrat ki taraf say hota hai. Maira badan bhi kucch aisa hi hai aur agarchay mairay mammay, kandhay, bazoo, chootarr aur raanain itnay motay hain magar mujhay phir bhi koi mota nahi keh sakta. Mein lambi chorri, tagrri aur tandurast-o-tawaana hoon laikin phusphusi aur moti nahi. Ye aur baat hai kay mein khud apnay badan ki saakht ko pasand nahi karti aur maira humaisha say yehi khayaal hai kay agar mairay mammay aur chootarr thorray cchotay hotay to ziyaada accha hota.
Mairay mammay seenay par kaafi oonchay hain aur phoolay huay nazar aatay hain. Mairay nipples bhi buhat lambay aur motay motay hain. Mein ziyaada dair tak brassiere pehnay rahoon to mairay nipples mein halka halka dard shuru ho jaata hai aur mujhay ghantay do ghantay kay liay brassiere utaar kar apnay mammon ko khula rakhna parrta hai. Agar mairay nipple brassiere kay andar ghalat zaawiyay say dabay huay hoon tub bhi mujhay taqleef hoti hai. Aisi soorat mein mein apnay garaibaan mein haath daal kar mammon ko brassiere mein theek karti rehti hoon. Ye apni jagah aik masla hai kiyonkay kisi kay saamnay to aisa kiya nahi ja sakta. Mein ya to apnay akailay honay ka intizaar karti hoon ya bathroom chali jaati hoon. Mairay bazoo bhi gol aur motay hain aur bazo’oon kay darmiyaan mairay mammon kay dono ubhaar khud mujhay thorra sa bhi neechay daikhnay par baahar niklay huay nazar aatay rehtay hain. Mein sar jhukaoon to mujhay apnay pa’oon nazar nahi aatay kiyonkay mairay mammay saamnay hotay hain. Pata nahi aur auraton kay saath aisa hota hai ya nahi laikin mairay saath to humaisha say yehi hai.
Mairay mammay 12/13 saal ki umar mein hi buhat taizi say barrhnay shuru ho ga’aiy thay. Phir 18/19 baras ki umar tak puhanchtay puhanchtay mein apnay motay aur bay-qaaboo mammon ko sambhaalnay kay liay acchay khaasay barray size ka brassiere pehannay lagi thi. Mairay liay to brassiere ko theek tareeqay say apny mammon par fit kar kay pehanna bhi aik masla hota tha. Naram kaprray ka brassiere pehanti to mairay mammon ka hilna band nahi hota tha aur agar sakht material say bana hua brassiere istimaal karti to bay-chaini aur bay-aaraami hoti. Baji Nilofar, Baji Khadija ka bhi yehi haal tha aur unkay mammay bhi issi raftaar say soojtay ja rahay thay. Kucch arsay baad Shehnaz bhi issi tajarbay say guzri.
Choonkay hum sab behnon kay mammay motay hi thay iss liay uss waqt mujhay apnay mammon ka mota aur barra hona ziyaada paraishaan nahi karta tha. Mairi cchothi behan Shehnaz mujh say 7 saal cchoti hai aur uss waqt apni kum-umri ki waja say motay mammay uss ka masla nahi thay. Laikin Baji Nilofar, Baji Khadija aur mein mazaaq mazaaq mein apnay bharrtay huay mammon ka muqaabla kiya karti theen. Issi tarah hum aik doosray kay mammon ko tatol tatol kar aur daba daba kar bhi daikha kartay thay kay kis kay mammay ziyaada barray aur bhaari hain. Hum teeno mein apnay nipples ki motai aur lambai ka muqaabla bhi hua karta tha. Humaari sab say ziyaada waahiyaat harkat ye hoti thay kay hum aik doosray kay nipples ko chutkiyon mein pakarr pakarr kar daikhtay thay kay kis kay nipple jaldi akarrtay hain. Ajeeb bay-fikri ka zamaana tha.
Baji Khadija buhat shokh hua karti theen aur kai dafa unho nay kappray badaltay huay mairay nangay mammon ko haath mein pakrr kar bhi masla tha. Baji Nilofar unhay aisa karnay say mana karti theen laikin jab wo baaz nahi aati theen to Baji Nilofar khud unkay mammon ko pakarr liya karti theen. Phir to jaisay qayaamat aa jaati thi aur hum teeno aik doosray kay mammay pakarr pakarr kar khaincha kartay thay. Humain apnay mammon par aik doosray kay haathon ka lams barra accha lagta tha. Issi qisam ki ehmaqaana harkaton ki waja say hum teeno kay kai brassiere phat ga’aiy aur istimaal kay qaabil nahi rahay.
Larrkiyon ki aik buhat barri aksariyat kay mammay 18/19 saal ki umar mein barrhna band ho jaatay hain aur iss kay baad unkay size mein thorra buhat hi farq parrta hai. Aisa mammon ki waja say nahi hota balkay jab pooray jisam ka wazan barrhta hai to mammay bhi bhaari ho jaatay hain. Laikin chand aisi auratain bhi hoti hain jin kay mammay baad mein bhi bharrhtay rehtay hain. Mein aur mairi behnain bhi aisi hi hain. Umar kay saath saath humaara wazan bhi barrhta raha aur mammay bhi mazeed motay hotay ga’aiy. Mein to tub apnay mammon say bay-zaar hona shuru hui jab har do teen saal kay baad mujhay apnay brassiere ka size tabdeel kar kay barray size ka brassiere laina parrta tha.
Shaadi kay pehlay saal jab mein apnay shohar kay saath America gai aur wahaan aik store say apnay liay brassiere khareeda to mujhay pata chala kay mairay mammon ka size 36HH hai. Phir dono baitiyon ki paidaish kay chand saal kay andar andar mairay mammay aur bhi barray ho ga’aiy aur unka size 40HH tak ja puhancha. Iss mein 40 kamar aur mammon kay neechay waalay hissay ka size hai jabkay HH mammon ki motai aur golai ka size hai. Jo khawateen brassiere kay sizes say waaqif hain wo jaanti hain kay 40HH mammay buhat barray aur motay hotay hain. Haan ye zaroor hai kay mairay ghair-maamooli lambay qad ki waja say mairay mammay daikhnay waalon ko koi buhat ziyaada barray nazar nahi aatay kiyonkay maira poora badan hi barra hai. Oonchay aur tthos honay ki waja say mairay bhaari mammay kabhi kabhi mairi kamar mein dard bhi paida kar daitay hain jo kai kai din tak mujhay paraishaan rakhta hai. Laikin ab to mujhay iss ki bhi aadat ho gai hai.
Picchlay tees baras kay tajarbay ko saamnay rakhtay huay mein apnay baaray mein yaqeen say nahi keh sakti kay mustaqbil mein mairay mammon ka size mazeed barrhay ga ya nahi. Phir bhi mujhay lagta hai kay ab mairay mammay issi size kay rahain gay kiyonkay Baji Nilofar jo mujh say teen saal barri hain unkay mammay bhi kum-o-baish mairay jitnay hi motay hain. Baji Khadija kay baaray mein to mein jaanti hoon kay wo mairay hi size ka brassiere pahenti hain. Iss liay ho sakta hai maira size bhi un dono jitna hi rahay. Agar aisa hi hua to mairay liay ye baat bhi itminaan ka ba’ais ho gi.
Apnay badan par mammon kay wazan ko thorra kum karnay kay liay mein nay kai dafa soccha kay America mein Breast Reduction surgery kay zarye apnay mammon ka size kucch kum karwa loon. Aisa aasaani say kiya ja sakta hai aur ye koi buhat ziyaada taqleef-day operation nahi hai. Mein shayad aisa kar bhi laiti laikin Baji Nilofar aur Baji Khadija nay mujhay sakhti say mana kar diya. Unka kehna tha kay humaari tarah ki itnay motay motay mammon waali auratain buhat thorri hoti hain aur jab humain qudrat nay ye naimat day rakhi hai to hum kufraan-e-naimat kiyon karain. Mein nay unki baat maan li kiyonkay agar wo dono apnay motay mammon par fakhar karti theen to mein apnay aap ko un say alag kar kay kamtar kiyon saabit karti. Kiya pata baad mein mujhay iss baat ka afsos hota. Phir iss haqeeqat say bhi to inkaar nahi kiya ja sakta kay mammay aurat ki niswaanyat ki sab barri shanaakht hain aur agar qudrat nay mujhay ye shanaakht ata kar rakhi hai to mein issay kiyon khatam karoon.
Mairay chootarr bhi waqt kay saath saath buhat motay aur chorray ho gaiy hain. Waisay to mairi gand mammon ki tarah buhat jawaani say hi bhaari thi aur mairi bay-takalluf sahailiyaan mairay hiltay huay motay motay chootarron kay baaray mein barray ganday ganday mazaaq kiya karti theen jaisay maira khawind mairi gand maara karay ga ya mairay paas lund lainay kay liay aik say ziyaada soraakh hain. Mein unhay kehti thi kay gand bhi koi maarnay ki cheez hai. Aisa hua bhi nahi kiyonkay Khalid fitratan barray seedhay insaan hain aur sex bhi barray seedhay saadhay tareeqay say hi karaty hain. Unho nay kabhi mairi gand nahi maari aur na hi kabhi mujh say iss baaray mein koi baat ki. Mein nay bhi ye kabhi soccha nahi kay agar wo aisa karain to mein kiya mehsoos karoon gi.
Jab mairi pehli baiti ki paidaish hui to mairay chootarr aur bhi taizi say motay honay shuru ho ga’aiy. Iss kay baad to mairay chootarron ka size har guzartay saal kay saath barrhta hi raha. Iss waqt mairay chootarr 43 inch kay hain jinhay kam-az-kam mein to ye bilkul pasand nahi karti. Kon itni moti aur bhaari gand ka bojh har waqt utha’aiy utha’aiy phiray. Log kehtay hain kay aurat ki khoobsurti uss kay mammon aur gand mein hoti hai aur mein to iss maamlay mein kucch ziyaada hi khud-kafeel hoon.
Iss waqt mairay badan ki bilkul sahi paima’ish 40HH-36-43 hai yaani 40HH mammay, 36 inch kamar aur 43 inch chootarr. Mein apnay aap ko slim karnay ki koshishain apni doosri baiti ki paidaish kay baad say yaani 28 baras ki umar say kar rahi hoon. Laikin har tarah ka jatan kar lainay kay bawajood siwaiy pait kay mein apnay badan mein aik inch ka farq nahi la saki. Tung aa kar mein aik Weight Loss expert kay paas gai to uss nay kaha kay mairi haddiyaan barri barri aur chorri hain jo mujhay apnay waaldain say wiraasat mein mili hain aur mein iss waja say kabhi bhi buhat dubli nahi ho sakti. Mein nay iss liay dubla honay ka khayaal hi dil say nikaal diya.
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